What can I do other than cut.?
It seems nothing gives me the same rush.
Seeing the blood drip from my hand
Makes me wonder if it's time.
But then my fiance comes to the rescue
And tells me everything
Will be alright.
I want to believe him
But you see I can't.
I've been lied to my whole life
So why take a chance.
He'll hold me and whisper sweet things in my ear
But with him behind me you see
I get this great fear.
I've been through it all
I know what it's like to hurt
I knew the moment
That pervert went up my skirt.
Now I'm afraid of every man.
And this is the reason
I am who
I am.
I want to love him but it's hard
Even though he can see passed my scars.
I still get the chills when he touches me there.
And this I feel is my fault
Cause I wasn't aware.
I didn't know what that man was doing
Nor why.
Now I know and
I hide inside.
He haunts my dreams
And because of this I will not sleep.
Now let me be.! Please have mercy upon me.
This is it I can't take anymore.
This will be the last day I walk out that door
And to the willow tree I will go
Not to sit and read
But to be hung by a rope.