Feb 2014
Happiness used to be something I could grasp
I relied on someone for happiness, thinking it would last
But that person saw me directly in the face with a mask
A mask of broken parts that he could not put himself back together
But only because he’s a man does not make him better
Since I relied my happiness on him, when he left I was gone too
I only blame myself for loving you
Caring for you
Giving you everything I had to offer to you
And what did you do?
In return I got lies
You were a fake man in disguise
Thinking if you could get me to fall in love you’d be lucky enough to get between my thighs
Now you’re name is engraved in the blunt when I get high
You see, don’t ever rely
Don’t ever rely your happiness in a guy
Because one day he could leave you in despair without a goodbye
He’ll leave you empty inside
Crying yourself to sleep at night
Wanting to die
And leave an unanswered question..
A simple why?
I’ll tell you why
Because he was brought into my life for a reason, although at first it wasn't clear
He was my first love, and now sadly love is my biggest fear
But I learned from this experience and the end is not near
Why?
Because this is simply life and life brings us many pains
Or joyful memories like when I danced with him in the rain
From that point and on, nothing was ever the same
People come and go
I’m sure that’s something everyone knows
But not everyone knows that no matter what size or color you are, you’re beautiful as a rose
Happiness used to be something I could grasp
I relied on someone for happiness thinking it would last
But I’m in a new chapter in my life and that is part of my past
And I am no longer crying over that *******
Why?
I found happiness
I found it on those sleepless nights
When I would peek outside at 6 in the morning and see the new sunshine
I found it in moments when my friends and I would laugh so hard it brought tears to our eyes
I found it when I fell in love with poetry and I sit down and write, write, write..
I found it in the simple things in life.
-j.c.
I relied on someone for happiness, thinking it would last
But that person saw me directly in the face with a mask
A mask of broken parts that he could not put himself back together
But only because he’s a man does not make him better
Since I relied my happiness on him, when he left I was gone too
I only blame myself for loving you
Caring for you
Giving you everything I had to offer to you
And what did you do?
In return I got lies
You were a fake man in disguise
Thinking if you could get me to fall in love you’d be lucky enough to get between my thighs
Now you’re name is engraved in the blunt when I get high
You see, don’t ever rely
Don’t ever rely your happiness in a guy
Because one day he could leave you in despair without a goodbye
He’ll leave you empty inside
Crying yourself to sleep at night
Wanting to die
And leave an unanswered question..
A simple why?
I’ll tell you why
Because he was brought into my life for a reason, although at first it wasn't clear
He was my first love, and now sadly love is my biggest fear
But I learned from this experience and the end is not near
Why?
Because this is simply life and life brings us many pains
Or joyful memories like when I danced with him in the rain
From that point and on, nothing was ever the same
People come and go
I’m sure that’s something everyone knows
But not everyone knows that no matter what size or color you are, you’re beautiful as a rose
Happiness used to be something I could grasp
I relied on someone for happiness thinking it would last
But I’m in a new chapter in my life and that is part of my past
And I am no longer crying over that *******
Why?
I found happiness
I found it on those sleepless nights
When I would peek outside at 6 in the morning and see the new sunshine
I found it in moments when my friends and I would laugh so hard it brought tears to our eyes
I found it when I fell in love with poetry and I sit down and write, write, write..
I found it in the simple things in life.
-j.c.
