written on February 10, 2014

I really need to learn not to cringe when I hear your name and stop spending countless nights remembering how things used to be when things were simple.

The sun doesn’t shine as much without you and the nights seem longer than they were before.

Everyone else isn’t as interesting as you.

If people were stars you would be the sun.

My world revolves around you.

.        .        .

I miss the hugs you used to give me for absolutely no reason than “just because”

I always held on a bit longer than I needed to

You never noticed the same way you never noticed how little we talk now.

Our conversations were endless like the galaxy we live in

When you spoke you elaborated on what you said

Words flew out of your mouth like *****

But now?

Now all I get are one word replies and awkward hellos.

I miss your pale face and thin body and your brown hair with natural red highlights which I thought was so beautiful

It’s been so long since I’ve seen you I’ve forgotten the color of your eyes.

They

         Were

                 Brown

                          Maybe?

I can remember that they were gorgeous and had I sparkle to them that melted my ice cold heart

How could I be sad with you around?

I hate that we don’t talk but I can’t say it’s entirely my fault.

I’m trying.

I tried.