if i'm not going to write about you anymore, i'll write about the emptiness i feel, how part of me seems to be missing, how i feel like one push will completely shatter me
i'll write about how i grab my chest just to remind myself that my heart is still beating, how now i just bleed to feel alive.
i'll write about the numbness inside of me, the way my smile no longer feels right on my face.
i'll write about the disconnect i feel to everyone around me, how even the people close to me feel an ocean away
                  but no,**i am not writing about you.