I don't want to be
the person that
everyone only has a memory of.
I don't want to be the girl who
sleeps all day
and doesn't at night.
I don't want to lay in bed
waiting for something to happen
I want to be happy but
I don't know how.
How can I when I have been this way
for so long.
I finally faced the world
and my reality hit me.
I'm so past comfort.
Therapy isn't even going to help me.
But I need it.
I need my reality to be the way it was.
When I was happy.
Maybe it will change even if its at a slow pace
**I am ready.