my Christmas wish was
to have you here with me,
wrapped in my arms.
the way it used to be, you know?

just us two, huddled together
on the sofa near the Christmas tree,
inhaling the sweet smell
of its wet leaves, watching
the drops of rain collide
with the ground and crawl
down the windows.

I wanted you to sing along
to your favorite Christmas songs
and laugh at me when I tried;
to dangle a piece of mistletoe
above our heads and lose
ourselves in a kiss.
It would have been a December 25th
to remember.

merry Christmas, love.
I miss you.
I miss us.