I am so ******* tired.
I feel it in every bone and fiber in my being.
It is the type of exhaustion that settles in your mind and weighs on your body.
Adrenaline kept me going for a while
But now that that's gone what am I supposed to do?
I want to collapse and sink into oblivion.
You won't let me reach the sweet bliss of nothingness.
Why?
Why won't you just let me slip away?
I don't want to be here anymore.
I don't see the point of going through these stupid motions.
I am so done with the *******.
I am already halfway to oblivion.
My eyes require more and more effort to stay open.
Finally, I think it's over.
The blood that flows through my veins seems to congeal.
My mind and thoughts slow drastically.
It takes me two or even three times to comprehend something.
Time condenses so that it feels as though I have lived my entire life in the time it takes for it all to end.
Sending thanks to whatever rules the universe (just in case).
I am so grateful it is all over.