I've always loved doing drugs.
I really like it.
Being numb.
I love that.
Not feeling at all,
Instead of feeling everything too much.
All at once.
Angry, happy, sad, tired, scared
All together in nasty brown.
Numb is nothing.
Numb is black, the absence of light.
Of existence.
Everything that brings me closer to nothing is me favorite thing.
Just for darkness, for nothing
I want to drown in the nothing I get when I sleep.
Its beautiful.
My friends think I should be scared of nothing
They are
So many people are scared of the possibility of nothing.
But it's so perfect
So empty and dark and lovely.
I want it to come and take over.
Nothing is so wonderful.