there was a time when I was not what I am now. to say that your death warmed me is an understatement. to say that the fire which turned you to ash lit my soul is a clean metaphor for the gruesome truth: I am no phoenix
but people say I look like you. people who loved you better who knew you better say I am becoming like you. I don't want to be you.
I loved you like a planet loves her moon, and now you are more distant and more close to me than ever before: you are both here and not here, and if you can hear me I'm sorry, but
your life is gone already, and I don't want to carry its weighty remembrance. I am not the result of your ashes. it has been two years: I will not stay rooted in the past, no matter how much it changed me.