i didn't want you to leave
even now,  i can't let you leave me
i miss the way you laughed at all my dumb things
and pushed up your glasses every time you smiled
i miss looking at your eyes
because they are the lightest blue
and would it be too cliche to compare them to the sky
because that's all i saw
when i looked into you

i miss the way you were comfortable
i miss the way i was comfortable

you're the only thing i can write about and it's been over a year

i want to hate you
i want to hate the way you made me love
your red hair and your stupid neck beard
and your perfect nose
i hate the way i miss you

i miss the late nights
and falling asleep to your breathing
(you were perfect because you didn't snore)
i miss the friendship
the laying around listening to records
or watching movies
i hate the way i miss you because i miss you in the worst way
i miss you in the way that it
just kind of fades into a person
you stop noticing it
then one day something makes me think of you
and there it is
i miss you all the time
everyday
without even noticing

it isn't an aching
it's just there
it's been over a year but i don't think i'll ever stop missing you

maybe one day i'll just stop noticing