skin crawling
heart beating
sweat pooling
mouth salivating
eyes darting
stomach turning
knees weakening

cant meet his gaze
his terrifyingly unmoving gaze
heart pangs
mind replays
guilt weighs heavy on my shoulders

dont know if an apology will work
no matter how honest my words are
- to me, anyways -
dont know if this will blow over
as if it never existed

cant pretend, cant forget
the earth continues to rotate slowly
too slowly