that moment when you are a shadow
among the living
when your heart is beating
yet you feel nothing
the cold leaves me gasping
but I embrace the struggle
I hang high from the noose
of memories that haunt me
In sleep I am helpless
In reality I feel hopeless
I feel guilty when he wipes my wasted tears
when I am lost in my self induced nightmare
It is like my heart and mind are fighting
To forgive and forget
or to weep with regret
For I have let what they say shell shock me into oblivion
my own Armageddon
I am ashamed
Sorry, forgive me,
one day wounds will heal
one day..