I have many secret fears
I'm scared that
My organs are autonomous and are waiting for their chance to leave me
And that
The mountains are alive and are waiting for us to overstep our bounds so they can destroy us and our fragile lives
Or
I will stretch my chest forward too far and the scar from my surgery will split and all my insides will fall out
And
That my dreams really do show the future and it isn't all in my head
And even that
I'll never mature mentally and I'll have to go the way of Peter's lost boys and be killed to keep Neverland secret from the adults
As well as
One day I might wake up and be happy, and have nothing to worry about and just have nothing to do.
I'm so scared of these things
And I don't know why.