This endless feeling of despair in my heart
The tightness in my chest and in my throat,
            Gulp
I want to breathe
The constant yearning of wanting to feel your warmth, soft skin, hands grazing, cuddling me from behind.
             Exhale
One moment I think I'm doing okay-- this happened for a reason
Another moment I'm feeling destroyed
              Choking
I just want to breathe
You're plucking at my heart strings and you
aren't even here
              Where are you?
Realization of constant turmoil
Not feeling loved, wanted and enjoyed
But
                Rejoice
It's a breath of fresh air, a slight breeze in my hair and elevating my arms to the sky, Feeling freer than ever.
                 Hallelujah

But when it gets dark and cold and lonesome
You are on my mind. You take up all the space in there.
It's happening again, palm sweating, cannot get up for air, chaos within my head.
                    Heart broken.

I just want you to say hi.