12:52pm was the time
I was sitting in lunch when I received a vague text
"I'm sorry about your sister"
My heart sank as I thought of the very worst
Clenched my fists and asked what was going on
It was then when she told me-
She's in the hospital
She tried to **** herself, Aolani.
A whirlwind of questions fluttered into my numb mind
Is she okay?
Why?
Where is she?
Where was I when she needed me?
This is my sister, my best friend we're talking about
I was in school
I couldn't cry
I can't be weak
Everyone tried to comfort me
But that's so useless
Nothing can take it back
Dad calls-
She's okay
She'll be in the hospital for quite a while, 3 weeks.
I can visit her very soon
But how will I handle that?
My role model,
The one and only girl I've ever found to be flawless,
Will be so weak and alone
Her nimble fingers inching to hold my cold shaky hands
Calling out for my affection
I'll tell her I love her because I now know how important it is
And I'll soak in tears until my sister
My older, wiser, beautiful sister
Finds peace.
(A.G.)