Why is it every time I get ahead I just fall back down?
One step forward twelve steps back,
Why everytime I feel a glimpse of contentment,
I end up crushed?
A wrecking ball to the chest
Knocking me back
Taking my wind
Crippling me with terrible force.
To say you broke my heart doesn't do the pain justice.
Crushed me
Mangled my body into pieces that will never be whole again.
My littlest kin
Why?
Who are you?
The mask you wear shields what you use to be
I remember the conversations
Hours spent teaching you
Coaching you
You, so eager to learn and willing to accept every aspect of my religion
Jah was good to you
Is this the same girl?
The one spitting at my face?
Yelling? Hitting ? Pushing?
Terrible things said send daggers of pain to my heart
Every thump sends shreds of glass through my veins and out my extremities
Only to circle back inside
Endless cycle.
I miss who you use to be
I am loosing faith
When do I walk away?
When do I say it's time to go?
Now.
Now I am done.
Now is enough.
I've held on for so long
The rope has finally snapped.
Things will never be the same.