Sometimes during the night
When I wake up frozen in terror with your
name clutched in my throat
It tend to think of you.
And how it used to be and how
Now there's a whole other person (a whole other person) out there who knows more
About me than
I know about
Myself.
Did it hurt, I wonder
Did it hurt when you broke my heart?
Because I did believe you when you said that
We shared ourselves with each other--
Piece by bitter
Piece
we cried we couldn't leave each other
Broken promises and 'don't tell anyone' whispered in the dark.
But you called me on New Years and we only listened to each other's breath we
Felt each other's presence but how far does that go?  
And I'm sorry I can't recognize when I'm
Being clingy, it's just the way I act when I'm around you
I'm sorry for thinking you were all but drastic
And I'm sorry I cried when I went home I'm sorry I
I'm sorry I'm me, and I'm sorry you lied when you said you loved me
But this was the first time for me
This will be
This will be an enigma and
I still can't accept that you just disappeared because
People don't fade that fast from my memory, I'm sorry.
But from the inside
I was hoping you'd hug me or at least
At least tell me
Tell me it'd be okay
Instead of making a promise you had no intention of keeping.