I COULD HAVE HATED YOU.
WITH CRACKED DOORS AND OVER-THROWN SOFAS.
RUMPLED SHEETS AND BROKEN SILVERWARE AS
TIDAL WAVES MOVE ALONG TO THE BEAT OF YOUR POUNDING CHEST.
I COULD HAVE SHOUTED MY HATRED FOR YOU USING MEGAPHONES RIGHT ON YOUR EAR SO IT STUCK PERMANENTLY.
I NEVER USED TO LISTEN TO AUTHORITY BUT I FIND MYSELF EMBEDDING EVERY WORD SHE SAYS ONTO MY SKIN AS IF IT WAS THE LAST BREATH I WILL EVER TAKE.
I COULD HAVE HATED YOU AND RIPPED MY HEART INTO SHREDS AS I WATCH YOU WALK AWAY FROM ME WITH A BOUNCE ON YOUR STEPS
FINALLY FREE FROM SOMEONE LIKE ME.
OH, DARLING, I NEVER EXPECTED YOU TO STAY BUT I NEVER EXPECTED TO FALL IN LOVE EITHER.
AND THAT WAS MY MISTAKE.
TO BE THE ONLY ONE JUMPING AND HITTING THE WATER WHILE YOU STOOD ABOVE WATCHING ME DIVE INTO MY OWN MISERY. YOU KNEW ALL ALONG, DARLING. YOU KNEW IT ALL ALONG.
I COULD HAVE HATED YOU BUT LOVE DOESN'T JUST LEAVE YOU WHEN YOU TELL IT TO. IT HAS ITS OWN SENSE OF TIME.
AND IT IS STILL STICKING TO ME LIKE A ******* PARASITE.
I COULD HAVE HATED YOU BUT WE BOTH I KNEW I COULDN'T DO THAT.
YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF MY LOVE AND DROPPED ME LIKE FIVE YEAR-OLDS DO WITH RICE GRAINS AND YOU NEVER BOTHERED WITH THE FIVE-SECOND RULE.
I COULD HAVE HATED YOU
BUT I LOVE YOU AND DARLING,
THAT WAS MY BIGGEST MISTAKE.

m.j.