I swallow down selfish words
Because you love me more when I pretend to moan your name.
You grab my face with your big hands and I look up at you.
Remember when I said I’d do anything for you?
I didn’t know it had to be self sacrificing.
A sadistic smile grows and covers your body
and ruins the bed
and bruises my skin
each time you hear me express pain.
I swallow down the word ‘stop’
Because you love me more when I pretend to moan your name.