If I could give it a name, I'd call it unforgettable.
I'd call it unimaginable.
Absolutely amazing... and yet, it slipped away.
If I had known, I'd have held on tighter.
I would have fought harder.
I would have put in the effort that it deserved.
I would have.. had I the slightest inkling that I would end up here.
I would tear my heart out and place it in front of you.
Take it. Keep it. Just don't destroy it.
I would have let go of all those fears that I let whisper in my mind.
I would have washed away all the doubts that crowded my thoughts.
I would have ignored all the things I was told.
It would have been different and I would not be here.
These thoughts would not keep slipping into my brain.
My hands would not tremble when I reached out.
I would finally be able to catch my breath.
I'd sleep.. finally.. if I had known.
I could have changed it, but I allowed myself to fall down.
I shed away and that is my ultimate failure.
It could have been forever and instead, I let it become never.
I would have been the person that we talked about.
And I would have the future that I had hoped for.
The love that I had always craved was right beside me and I walked away in fear and anger.
I let myself be swayed and it was gone.