so it never surprised me when you
would suddenly disappear from my
life.
All at once
no warnings
just gone with no hints as
to why.

Contact didn’t happen
and after a while I would
give up.
I knew when it came time that
you would show back up.
Few months later it
always happened-
no excuse for me
just some vague
                 casual
                 normal
greeting.
As if you hadn’t just come back from
months long haitus from me.
Always something like
Hey baby
I sure missed you.

It didn’t matter that
that was how it always went
for you and I.
There was a constant fear that
the last time I saw you would
be the very last.

Took to making sure you knew
how loved you were
every time I walked away from you.
Only you knew the next time we would
see each other.