All these words
and nothing to say

It's lonely at the top
but it's also lonely
on the bottom

How many years can one spend
not getting anywhere?

Oh God.
I look up and
here I am
in this life again

Surrounded by
the same people
the same walls
the same food
the same words

But I don't want to find it yet.
I don't want to get there yet.
I want to stay lost.
I want to get more lost
so you will come find me.