Lost, broken and afraid…who thought that I'd turn out this way?

The child no one wanted…the little girl who talked way too much.

Now I'm the woman…the one no one gets to love.

I don't let anyone in…no one can ever see…

The pain, distress and devastation you have brought to me.

Some say I'm strong…others say I'm blind.

Yet still…they weren't there at night when I cried.

No one knows how weak I really am…

No one knows how hard I had to fight…

Just so I could live…and for what?  Is this really life?

I'm not sure it's worth it…maybe she should have won.

Looking back…the damage has already been done.

Bruises may fade…but the pain remains the same.

Scars will last a lifetime along with the memories that will never fade away.

I can't go on… I can't go back.

I can't change the past…

But I keep on living…

Keep on pretending to be…this strong woman everyone wants me to be.

Everyone thinks I'm so full of love…they have no idea what I'm full of.

But I'll smile just the same…hide all the pain.

No one has to know…and I can just keep playing my game.