I wish to be dead because I'm not alive
a sort of half existance between evil and good
these hands grasp at my ankles
they live just to drag me down
I struggle to free myself
does Lucifer have me now?
what is this light I'm seeing
something beyond dim
what happend to the shine
the light within my eyes
how long has it been drowned
in this vast ocean of boiling choking mist
and how through all of this
am I ever going to see him
the one who shines so darkly bright
to repel my captors
nowhere does such a man exist
it is true they are only myths
I know in my emptiness
that I must save myself
I can rely on nothing else
my only way out is on my own
so for silent tears leave me alone
you cannot save me, don't pretend to try
do not stand and talk
because if I can't get out I'll drag you down here
where nobody can hear your tears
I'll kick at your joints
and climb up your bones
use you like all before used me
I won't look back
I won't dare to glance
Nor will I lend a hand to pull you out
you can drown or starve or burn
like the feelings inside of me
the demons will eat your existence
**... maybe after your body is dark and twisted
you can join me in this plague
with claws entwined
revelling in the darkness
scouring the land
only relenting when all is blind**