I drank a little too much tonight
Until I could feel the blood in my veins being replaced with a foreign substance
A substance which replaces sanity for insanity
and pain for numbness

I drank until I could feel my head swimming
Until something shifted within me,
Until there was nothing but sadistic thoughts

Every sip made me shut my eyes,
Feel the burn of the alcohol slide down my throat,
Feel the way that with every sip,
I lost the feeling of being lost more and more.

With each sip, your name became more and more clouded,
and the dates special to me faded more and more from my mind
With every sip, I cared less and less,
Because I began to feel nothing but the warm sensation rushing through my veins that you used to give me,
In the form of something much more toxic.

But like every substance that feels good as it courses through your veins,
There is always a price to pay in the morning,
And as the buzz and warmth that the alcohol provided slowly fades away,
It is replaced by what I had been smothering,
But like every time you smother the pain,
When it finally returns,
It returns more ferocious and vivacious than before.
emw