it was awkward
but there was beauty in it
you never see beauty in youth when you're young
you don't know the dust you'll taste
that those tears will grow some unfortunate flower
that one thing that happened
will quake and rock in your heart til you die
that no one will kiss you like he did
that no one will care like she did
that you will die one day
and that  you are  unstoppable in the meantime
and you dont know it'll be okay yet
they'll be   more  gallons of blood poured
and you dont know that a little child is watching you
you'll be their  world
until they can make their own pitfalls
and you will grow and
live and laugh and die
and it will be graceful
and  you will never have to see this ugly
beautiful world
ever again
I didnt know
I still dont know
my heart it overflows
with hate and gratitude and happiness
you have no idea
the rage in my fingers
in my heart and mind
I speak for them
for the fallen
for the ****
for the shallow
and the ugly
you will end
but you were beautiflul
while you lasted.