I've become attracted to pain the pain the world feels the pain i cause others the pain you caused me it's my drug to shoot into bruised viens making my heart race my blood turning to lead you see things that don't exist people that aren't there I'm addicted but not in the traditional sense i try to stay away but it's a magnetic pull a fault in my stars a genetic defect of sorts the imbalance of chemicals in my brain i try to avoid the pain like an alcoholic avoids sobriety happiness creeps back but theres always a high before the low it's the low that has me i crave it the pain leaves my limbs weak my eyes dark but it never disappoints it wraps me in its hold promising to be there when the high is too high