I remember the cool metal on my back
as you pushed me farther towards it
with your soft lips
your taut body flexed
I ran my fingers through your short hair
and felt you strong arms **** me in
and I looked at the moon from your grasp.
you asked what is wrong?
and I replied nothing
because how do you put into words what I'm feeling?
you simply can't.
I can even make sense of it in my jumbled head
I try to take mental pictures of the moment
while trying not to ruin the moment
or overthink it
it's a strange thing to understand something so completely
and know the right decision
but to ignore the thought in the back of your mind
scraping your skull
trying to get out.
so I said goodbye and I gave one last kiss
followed by another
because last kisses never last long enough.