I didn't know I still missed you. I thought I was doing fine, you know? I could stand to see the couples. I could read love stories again. I didn't think of you that often. And when I did it didn't **** me (as much.)
Every night, though, I'll lie awake. With sadness in my bones. I feel so lonely, and it's rather strange, Because I'm not the least bit alone.
I haven't touched the notebook in a month. It still sits beside my bed. I don't think I could even touch it, without feeling again. ******* useless bits of paper soul.
I don't know why I feel the way I do. I thought I just missed the way you made me feel. The feeling of love, y'know? I never thought for a moment I was missing you.
Did you know I feel hollowed, love? Not just empty, so much more. Something was dredged out of my heart. And, ****, I'm pretty sure it was you.
**** me, **** you. **** us, and everything we were. Do you know it feels like I'm dead, my love? And do you know, it hurts like a *****?
It's mysterious, really, how it ended the way it did. I know you've found someone else. I know they hear your voice instead. But I don't know how you've replaced me, when my heart's still made for you.