I try, honestly
I really do try
But no one sees
they dont see me
they see someone but its not me
why don't you look closer
I'm right there  just below the surface
all you have to do is look closer
and you'll see

see that i'm scared
that i'm alone and tired
that i cant hold it in anymore
that it all seems like to mush
that i know i'm wasting it all
that im lost, dissapointed,and devastated
about to break down
every day