I can't believe its been:
another day
another week
another month
and another year without seeing her

I have begun to think she will come back
ready to take her place in my life and heart

I believe a girl should not be without her mother
Just like a boy should not be without his father

To me,
Its no life to live

Lately I have been wondering
What she would say if she could see me now

Would she say she loves me
Or would she call me a sinner
Would she call me a loser
Or would she call me her baby girl
I wonder if she could see through my mask
Through my disguise

And most of all
I wonder if I could finally tell her the truth

The truth you might ask?
Its hard to say
But I'll tell you
Since I'll have to tell you
For I need to get ready for the day...

I will say..

Mom,

I truly wanted to be like you at one time
But I never got the chance
And I guess that was a good thing now
Because your now not the person you once was
and,
If you would have wanted to
They could have saved you
But you said you would never give "it" up
not even for me

Honestly,

I've been so lonely without you here
I feel like there's a big part of me missing
And I can't seem to find it.

But I know one thing..

I miss you.