I felt I had you
Felt a connection that seemed greater than my arrogance.
Like you knew more of me than I told you.
So I held off, hoping it would fall together.
So I held off but it fell apart,
So rapidly I found myself trying to be numb.
Writing now because it failed.

Now a process that seems familiar.
Acting cool again.
Like it never mattered
Like it never hurt
Like I never liked you.
Like I never dreamt of trying to wife you.
Of course as fantasy.
It just seemed promising.

Acting cool got me in this.
I thought it could stay like this.
I wish I could stop acting
and be honest
and be earnest
and just be more, you know.

Goodbye.
I'm acting to cool to say this to you
I'll really miss you.