I guess all of us would have to vow to love our partner for an eternity no matter what circumstances after our marriages. we would try our best to keep that promise.
both of you didn't. the situation got worse that it came to the point that we had to live separately. i thought the situation was under control after a while.
i was utterly wrong because this happened. are we all that afraid of loneliness? did you even love your first partner you promised you'd be committed and loyal to? how did you even have that face and guts to do that? for your own happiness? do you really think this is your 'new found love'? how could you ruin someone's only hope that you were a good person? you ruined other peoples' happiness today too. (and i thought i saw the disappointment in my grandma's eyes today)
you promised. however, i guess that was a promise you made hastily without much consideration. because that promise was broken anyway. today is just the consequence of all the things you've failed to do or say to keep to that promise. (you'll never be able to love someone new)