I thought we were through
i thought i was done
for months and months i felt nothing
we were together but i was gone

when it ended i expected
to feel released,
a new freedom
but instead, i got nothing

i felt nothing
no joy, no happiness, no pain
no sense of loss
or freedom to find something new
nothing

and now after months and months
and almost years,
i remember.
i love you.

i wish you wanted me too.