how do you tell
someone you regret breaking
their heart
when you actively
participated in the breaking
there's no nuances
or loopholes you can deflect to
you merely ruined
everything you had and could have had
and you're sitting on
a Thursday morning at three in the morning
breaking holes in walls because this
woman is crying herself to sleep
but soon she is gonna get up
soon she is going to get out
--if not already--
and there are so many men better than you
and there are so many men better for her than you
and you had your shot
you got lucky, punk
but how dare you throw that away
how dare you flip off fate
he gave you a break
and look at you
have the nerve to think you'll be ok
but you don't know
you've eaten the forbidden fruit
savored that impeccable truth
and now everything else
is just a miserable shadow
of the love you tossed out with
the morning trash