I’m at that point where
chopping my face off with an axe would be nice

I’m uncomfortable
not like pins and needles no
more like i’ve been standing in line
too long
needing to change my ******
wet socks in dry shoes
uncomfortable

I can’t believe the ******* ****
that comes from lips
and my face
my laughter is all wrong
all the things i say
all wrong like
a failed test i studied so hard for

I’m at that point where i’m ready to
unzip
myself from head to toe to brain
make me new in every way, every hair
change my name
change my voice

the narrator of my thoughts
make her real
make her out of silicone
pour her over me and let her harden

this body i’m in
this person talking out loud is not me
she’s
NOT
ME
SHE IS NOT ME
SHE IS NOT ME SHE IS NOT ME SHE IS NOT ME SHE IS NOT ME

take me out WITH A BAT
and then take me out

in your car