i stare at the wall
paralyzed
comatose
wondering if you truly love me
and i you
because we both
know that everything ends
and yet we're counting on this to last
indefinitely

some days
we can't even look at each other
but the beauty is that
tomorrow we won't be able to look away

because you are everything i wish i could be
patient and kind
while i am unpredictable and vivacious
full of the anger you wish you could produce

sometimes i get scared of finding someone else
who i love more than you
other times,
i get terrified
because i know that i won't

one thing is for sure
my unbitten nails
are proof that you
have helped me
so much more
than you could ever know