Oct 2009
I’ve created this man and I don’t know what to do.
He’s changed what people think and that’s including you.
He is not who I am but yet he is me.
Doesn’t know what to do, doesn’t know what to be.
He does what I do but doesn’t feel how I feel.
Caused a scar in my life he does not know how to heal.
Where did he come from, and why is he here?
What does he live for, and what does he fear?
Even I don’t know and his choice is my choice.
He says things I’d never say, yet he uses my voice.
When I go to sleep it’s me and just me, Tyler.
Then when I wake up he’s back, like someone re-lit the fire.
I just wish he would stop, want him to go away.
Yet no matter what I do he says he’s here to stay.
T.Hutch what are you doing, controlling my lifestyle.
Why do I feel like you’re gonna be here a long while?
But at the same time is this really going on?
Or is it just an excuse because reality isn’t holding on?
Am I two people, or think in two different ways?
Do I have an alter ego that switches on between days?
Someone please help and tell me what’s wrong.
Why is my heart weak, yet when he comes it’s so strong.
One minute I’ll cry the next minute I’m furious.
Is it because I’m switching through people, to find the answer I’m curious.
Taking control of my thoughts, actions, eventually my soul.
Certain areas he controls, but soon he’ll have my life as a whole.
I need to stop him before he goes too far.
Because you cannot let someone else determine who you are.
He says this, yet I think that.
When his heart races, my heartbeat is flat.
Never are we both out, one is always hiding.
Yet sometimes I just don’t know which one of us is deciding.
Who is more dominant, me or him?
Which one of us has last say as the day turns dim?
Will I ever know, or will it even matter?
I need to find out soon, or watch my life just shatter.
The answer will come whether it’s now or in a million years.
I can’t stress it now or my eyes will shed a million tears.
So on this epic battle, of me versus you.
I’m just going to try my hardest, to find out which is true.
He’s changed what people think and that’s including you.
He is not who I am but yet he is me.
Doesn’t know what to do, doesn’t know what to be.
He does what I do but doesn’t feel how I feel.
Caused a scar in my life he does not know how to heal.
Where did he come from, and why is he here?
What does he live for, and what does he fear?
Even I don’t know and his choice is my choice.
He says things I’d never say, yet he uses my voice.
When I go to sleep it’s me and just me, Tyler.
Then when I wake up he’s back, like someone re-lit the fire.
I just wish he would stop, want him to go away.
Yet no matter what I do he says he’s here to stay.
T.Hutch what are you doing, controlling my lifestyle.
Why do I feel like you’re gonna be here a long while?
But at the same time is this really going on?
Or is it just an excuse because reality isn’t holding on?
Am I two people, or think in two different ways?
Do I have an alter ego that switches on between days?
Someone please help and tell me what’s wrong.
Why is my heart weak, yet when he comes it’s so strong.
One minute I’ll cry the next minute I’m furious.
Is it because I’m switching through people, to find the answer I’m curious.
Taking control of my thoughts, actions, eventually my soul.
Certain areas he controls, but soon he’ll have my life as a whole.
I need to stop him before he goes too far.
Because you cannot let someone else determine who you are.
He says this, yet I think that.
When his heart races, my heartbeat is flat.
Never are we both out, one is always hiding.
Yet sometimes I just don’t know which one of us is deciding.
Who is more dominant, me or him?
Which one of us has last say as the day turns dim?
Will I ever know, or will it even matter?
I need to find out soon, or watch my life just shatter.
The answer will come whether it’s now or in a million years.
I can’t stress it now or my eyes will shed a million tears.
So on this epic battle, of me versus you.
I’m just going to try my hardest, to find out which is true.
