Its hard to wake up from a nightmare when you're not even sleeping its hard to trust people when you don't even trust yourself its hard loving people when you dont even love yourself its hard being in other people's battles when your at war with yourself its hard trying to find path when you're so lost its hard to let people In when you want to be alone its hard to forget the memories when there where so many good ones Its hard to laugh when you feel like breaking its hard to fake a smile when there around its hard for giving people when they put you through so much pain its hard seeing things gade away when you wamt them to come back ita hard seeing people leave when I never left anyone its hard to grow up when everyone is changing its hard to hold on when you JUST want to let go its hard not to cry when you gave me so many reasons to its hard to talk to you when you use my flaws against me It's hard to think about you when I don't want you to exist it's hard to feel confident when I have so many flaws it's hard to dream when you're living a nightmare