the blinds can't quite block out people like you'd hoped they would the moon still shines when you close your eyes the mercury still seeps in between closed eyelids reduced to veins that run hollow you know they were once filled with electricity but you can't remember the sting wristwatches slowing time as they go to sleep drowsy hands still can't cover the bruise pupils dilate to conform to the darkness but you can still see them throat contracts and it's just not right to assume it's because of the lack of oxygen you're choking on your own breath and your thoughts still roam to them don't worry even if your reasons are selfish, how can they not be? you're a lover after all