you're sitting on your bed lights off and curtains closed and the carpet illuminated through the cracks in the door so it's night, but you're not tired, you're not, you're thinking daydreaming because your mind is in control you hope, but its not doing what you want and everything is falling apart all frame-shifts and flickers of deleted data and **** this because honestly what's the point. if it doesn't work then it doesn't work and you can't fix this, we can't fix this it's broken and it'll stay that way don't you dare try and put this back together you ****** don't you dare because you put everything into this and i did nothing i don't deserve you and you don't deserve this this shattering illusion of happiness bright memories and lovely thoughts because everything is just waiting for the metaphorical black cloud to appear because everything is just a clusterfuck of bad emotions well
well, ****. this was supposed to go differently, i swear not in a different direction, just... just less harsh see, look at that i just **** up everything i do see, this is why this is a problem see, this is why you need to leave