Junior High
The worst and the best years of my life
we laughed, we cried, we were connected, we were one
you *helped me

Seventh Grade
she was there
the girl everyone loved
the girl everyone wanted to be
I devoted my life to her
made her feel better about herself
risked everything to make her happy
my grades,
my family,
my dignity
all because of her
my so called "Best Friend"

I did everything I could to be like her
I stopped eating
I stopped listening to my parents
I stopped caring

everything was for her

Then...

She ruined me

"YOU *****! DONT EVER TALK TO ME!" were the last things she said to me

I died inside
I was finished

She told everyone lies about me
made up stories about me

Id walk down the halls and everyone would step aside as if I was crap
****
Id ask a simple question
only to be responded with eyes filled with hate
disgust

those eyes haunted me

Id cry myself to sleep

I shut everything off
my mom
my dad
my brothers
my sister

my self

I was an empty body with no soul
like a pen with no ink
useless and unwanted

but you...

you saw through the lies
you didn't see the girl that was unwanted
you saw a girl that was lonely
a girl that was troubled
a girl who needed a friend

you were there for me

I showed you my internal scars
you showed me yours

across your wrist

how could someone so beautiful do that to herself?
the pain you must of felt
you told me your story
I told you mine

you defended me
you were there for me

YOU HELPED ME
and I will never forget that

we know each other inside out
we know each others secrets
HELL! we wrote fan fiction together!

I want that again

we are learning how to live without each other
cause you'll be leaving me soon
and it hurts every time I think about it

But for now I just want to be with you
I want to laugh like before
I want to have our inside jokes be ours again
I want you to be honest
I want you to tell me when I **** up

Because your my best friend

my comadre

you saved me....