I just realized,
that I will grow to be
a selfish old man
who uses words to make up for the things he
never did
never said
chances he never took
these words will make paragraphs
and poems
and they will make books
that people will look to for advice
when I,
I will be looking for advice in
those who read them
and they will never see
that I need
more help
than they
ever
did