A part of me hates not trying harder for you when I had the chance I mean it's now so awkward between us, we give each other blank stares for that might be all we were ever worth to each other I hate knowing I didn't try harder for you and wanting you as wildly as you wanted me, sometimes I wonder what would've happened if you'd gotten the chance to be mine, would we finally be at harmony in one another's eyes because as of right now it feels like we have unfinished business, when you look at me and smile I can't help but wonder what your thinking or if maybe your not thinking anything at all maybe you just happen to gaze in my direction or the fact that we haven't hugged once since I was fifteen and today as I said goodbye to you and your new love as we parted down the path, you looked at me with your arm held out for a hug and I walked toward you, books in hand unable to return the warm embrace and in that moment I wondered what made you want to say more than goodbye, what made you want to embrace me for a second or two or was it just a friendly hug, whenever I'm around you I'm just not sure anymore, granted your feelings may have faded but I do wonder from time to time if I happen to cross your mind more than once on our awkward encounters.

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