Time like a river has past.
Like an ocean, it has accumulated.
I, a captain, of land have I seen of last.
To the edges of oblivion have I, myself relegated.
Of the thousand steps have I walked.
Of this earth have I wandered.
Of solitude have I carefully stalked.
Of you I have dared not pondered.
So long in this desert, so long in this desolation.
So long have I felt not a motion nor a spur.
To the frost bitten isles, to the coldest snows, of warmth I have no relation
My skin has hardened of its shell my heart will not be lured.
And yet when I stop.
When my corded muscle ceases in its motion.
And in a hardened mind a sprinkle of doubt.
And weary eyes turn to look back and thus begins my erosion.
For there is no solace in this distance.
No comfort in this silence.
The emotion, my every action withstands.
Of all my efforts of violence.
I feel, and therefore I am undone.
I feel and my strength and will slayed, fall down
I feel and time reverts and it feels like it did when it all begun
I feel and my through my bedrock erupts anguishes sound.
I remember a face laced in roses.
Like a dream I am carried back into your arms.
And around me comfort closes
And again I am besotted with your charms
I remember it all and that is the source of my madness.
Of a loss of ones mind, not of reason, but of emotion.
To be left barren, in pain constantly empty and loveless.
Of our union I gained something that merrited my devotion.
And at its loss, my mind broke at the eight of its cost.
And so I turn away from the warmth of memory.
I toss myself into the fire and the storm of loss.
I grind myself against life's emery.
"Destroy me" I cry.
"For I cannot bare this cruelty you have visited upon me."
But I only become harder in body and in soul not matter how hard I try.
Of the end as I walk I cannot see.
Out of this darkness I cannot find my light.