I can't breathe today or any other. I haven't been able to for the past fourteen years. My throat burns with what today brought out of me. I failed.
Failed to tell you that I'm sick in the head. Failed to tell you that I don't need your help but I want it. I failed to let you know that I love you without saying it. I failed to let you see me cry.
I wanted to keep it all in but somehow it managed to escape, out my lungs and into the cold harsh air of January's reality. I don't want to face it all but you keep on taking off the blindfold.
These "feelings" make me sick and all I want to do is be with you. Be beside you and sleep through the night knowing you're there to hold me if the room gets too cold.