I don't really like myself when I develop feelings for someone.
I get so attached so fast and I can't really control it.
I get paranoid over the slightest things and then I get so anxious that everything turns into a blur.
I can't remember everything and it freaks me out.
I wish that it was a gradual process but instead
it's kinda like someone dunked my head in cold water and didn't know when to pull me out for air.

*-c.a.