just take it. everything. and everyone. all of my "needs" and comfortability. the shoes, the food, the house and car. the old man and his older wife. the dog behind the fence. the ****** with spoon in hand. the police with their sirens. the hungry child who does not know why he has a god so unforgiving. the money and drugs, the thoughts that i hate. the mass of people with grim looks and self-loathing- reminding me not to enjoy this too much. we are tired, worried, alone. we live in fear, not love. but that's ok. i'm afraid too.