It took me a long time to figure out
That your smile is just pearly white
Cliches strung together by lies and smoke
Everyday the pain gets worse
But I can only think about
Why you don't care
And my bruises only care
That they never saw you
There are so many questions that I want to ask
Your dead eyes
But desperation was never a color I was comfortable in
I try and try
But all I get back are smiley faces that lead nowhere
And I thought we had a somewhere
I keep thinking
Trying to figure out what I did wrong
What I can change to make you
Keep your promises
But I guess I'm the one who broke that first
I can't change for you
If you can't love me for who I am
Who is going to
I have plenty of blank pages ahead of me
And if you weren't going to write them with me
I was at least hoping you would be a character
But maybe that's expecting too much
Maybe you're finally doing what's right for you
And maybe that means you leave me out in the cold
But
The least you could have given me
Was a flashlight