My mind needs to focus on the task at hand,
But its drifting away to another place.
That place is you.
Yes you.

I thought frequently about you throughout the day.
Thoughts of you brought feelings of
peace,
rest,
safety.
I am not sure why.

I think it is because you accept me for who I am.
You forgive me for my mistakes.
And you like me for me.
That makes me feel safe.
That makes me feel calm.

So, I want you to know,
for some reason you are special to me.
I don’t claim you.
I won’t try to control or cling to you.
I won’t call you mine until you chose to be.
I will simply enjoy your presents…
but this will be hard for me.

As you know,
I love to control.
I want control over my path,
over my future,
over the relationships I have.
I don’t like the idea of being hurt,
or not knowing how the path will end.

I want to make you love me.
But I can’t.
And I won’t.

True love doesn’t come out of force.
It comes from a bond,
a deep bond of two souls.

So, my dear,
let this relationship be what it will be.
but know this:
I care for thee.